Day 47 23 March 2022

 Damn it's been more than 2 months since the last diary
Anyways A few good things have happened
to match them I have to remember or trigger the
Imminent bad things to happen to humble myself
Whenever I feel loved or actually liked by others
I Immediately rush to the greater bad side to
remind myself of my size and of who I am

For instance talking to people that don't like me
or even adding them so the Smaller good occassions
or the few people that actually treat me fine won't
carry me away from reality

Maybe It's just something I have to deal with
Just like how some people deal with certain disorders
or disabilities they have
I have to deal with a colossal amount of social rejection
and possibly hatred.